I don’t know what I fear more: death or ego death.
because ego death is confusion. a complete black. to be in that non dual space during the acid trip. was terriyfing.
and my reality shattered. and everything in the past, everything that i once knew, nullified. a fear of not being able to see my parent as my parent but just as myself.
relates to fear of enlightenment really.
ego death may as well be death. but with an added twist of confusion and deception revealed.