anxiety is not anxiety.
it is entropy, it is the universe collapsing on itself.
that is what i got from my acid trip.
that knot in my stomach is not just that, it is me feeling restlessness and a sense of urgency to manifest vision.
i think jung wrote about this. the mind and the entire sphere of experience one has of the external world is that of the internal. like the night time is the mind's own shadow or something.
like me having this terror of not being able to walk through space anymore. forgetting how to, or embodying the notion of
and i felt this, but it was "actually" just me being tired. but i wonder if it's the same thing. mental acuity, or some sort of sameness or underlying same concept.