i don't exist
describe what it feels like to have no self.
it feels like there is just existence. just mysterious appearances of being. reality feels a lot more open and free, and also less anthropromorphic. i don't feel human. i feel like a spectator in counter strike. feels like rush 2
I feel like i am inside a mind - it feels dreamlike and mysteriouslike, like i am in some arcadia.
There is just all of this.
In some sense, all wars are wars within oneself.
i am merging with reality. who i am is a mystery. whatever existence is is a mystery. i am mystery. i am darkness.
i have been both deeply depressed and terrified over this but also beautified and awe inspired.
but now when i look at other people, i get the same confusion..who are they? and do they know who they are etc.
the fear of never having been