existential_414

existential_414

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avoiding covid_meta fear
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Nov 26, 2021 9:17 PM

avoiding walking past someone not because i'm afraid of getting covid,

but because i'm afraid of the anxiety and paranoia itself of getting covid when walking past someone.

so existential….

a meta-fear.

this meta-ness is strong and pervasive...doing things not for the sake of doing them, but to avoid the negative emotions of not doing them.

even small things like adding a word to the vocabulary list