existential_120

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what an infinite regress of anxiety looks like

me working in a quiet library alone,

then a loud group come sin and sits across the booth.

then i get anxious and pissed.

but then i realize that it isnt their fault, its mine. i shold be able to work regardless

for deep focus is to be able to work, not ithout distractions, but without being distracted. for distractons only exist in so far as the capacity to be distracted exists.

and so i try to gt back into deep work, knowing i can control this.

so i get anxious and pissed as i try to not get anxius and pissed

and then i get anxius that i am anxiou for being anxious...........