If I visualize myself in the ideal
I see myself as a composer.
I see composition as real work.
to carve lenses of reality.
to be known for that.
to be known as a as composer.
to do something with my hands.
to think, act, and be in the world as a composer.
not a guitar player.
not a live performer.
composition is real exploration.
it is real expansion of the universe.
to use my resources and time and my mind fully in composition
because I feel like that's what matters the most.