to make honest, self-produced work, like a diary. not a product. i think thats what im gravitating towards. its interesting. and i believe this is what artists ought to do (ref. existential node on walking philosophies, and how every action is also an affirmation of itself and what one ought to do, when living with awareness). for artists to do things themselves as much as they can, artisan like. to control and sculpt ones own vision. to not have to overproduce for the sake of product or commercialization. to be and live authentically and to produce authentically. to just make something that you want to exist. and for people to see that and gravitate towards that. to not be loud. to not have to sell it in a way as if the music were a product. nothing plastic. like a diary. imagine that. imagine if every artist did this. to produce artifactual work, diary like. like explorations, like pointers. rather than propping it as finished clean products.
solipsism. as if i were doing this alone. alone in the world. doing something i simply want to exist.