in the face of inauthenticity, human insecurity, ulterior motives, financial incentives. especially when everyone else is facing the exact same problem.
sometimes its not you you need to worry about. its other people. analogous to being on the road you may be smarter than average on the road. but its not you you need to be aware of, its other people.
it is hard to map on vision to this reality. ←- separate essay. discussion with serjan. on how to find the congruence between being able to live in this human condition and also explore one's vision. to find the parallel of it (i.e being able to make a living from it)